am i scared? no. honestly what i actually feel is awe... death is that single event that nails us down to earth and tells us "hey wake up! dream's over.." death of close ones are painful.. when your eyes water , your heart is wrung and tears ebb and flow.. you lose your parent, sibling, friend, relative.. and you mourn the departure.. the event consumes you the way you were till yesterday, and like a phoenix birdie, a new you is born from the ashes of woe..
now death knocks at not only our doors, but also at our neighbours', colleagues', and at the door of any other 3rd person whom we seldom care about in our busy little world.. be it natural death from ailments, or death from an accident, or, worse, a kind of death we wish never happen again, on or off the newspapers, death sure is a shaky business.. how do we respond to the loss someone else is suffering from...?
now working at a hospital makes this thought pretty unpleasant, esp for a beginner like myself.. witnessing a death, witnessing the loss of a perfect stranger who, however, entrusted his/her beloved's life upon me, in a certain manner, is unpleasant.. i dont know how i would want to react to it.. but it had to come , for death always does, without warning... and not 1, but 2 souls where taken, wish as i might that the world didnt lose 2 most amicable old ladies... my forerunners would like to tell me "hey kiddo, life is like that.. its not always fair.. deaths happen all the time.. try to live with it..!"
when another soul is lost to the oblivion, no matter whose it was, i think it matters and it should matter... for young or old, everyone "lives" at the mercy of someone else.. and someone dies not bcz he/she ran out of mercy... perhaps death knows no mercy.. perhaps death is mercy itself.. depends on when,how, and upon whom death descends...
ah! death... such an intriguing mystery...!!
.and us mortals - yes, doctors included - watch in awe - the interplay of life and death.....
now death knocks at not only our doors, but also at our neighbours', colleagues', and at the door of any other 3rd person whom we seldom care about in our busy little world.. be it natural death from ailments, or death from an accident, or, worse, a kind of death we wish never happen again, on or off the newspapers, death sure is a shaky business.. how do we respond to the loss someone else is suffering from...?
now working at a hospital makes this thought pretty unpleasant, esp for a beginner like myself.. witnessing a death, witnessing the loss of a perfect stranger who, however, entrusted his/her beloved's life upon me, in a certain manner, is unpleasant.. i dont know how i would want to react to it.. but it had to come , for death always does, without warning... and not 1, but 2 souls where taken, wish as i might that the world didnt lose 2 most amicable old ladies... my forerunners would like to tell me "hey kiddo, life is like that.. its not always fair.. deaths happen all the time.. try to live with it..!"
when another soul is lost to the oblivion, no matter whose it was, i think it matters and it should matter... for young or old, everyone "lives" at the mercy of someone else.. and someone dies not bcz he/she ran out of mercy... perhaps death knows no mercy.. perhaps death is mercy itself.. depends on when,how, and upon whom death descends...
ah! death... such an intriguing mystery...!!
.and us mortals - yes, doctors included - watch in awe - the interplay of life and death.....
