grief

paediatrics slapped me on the face, and threw a bucketful of ice cold water over me... quite a rude awakening...

faces i saw there will haunt me for ever.. the children in paediatric icu and neonatal icu.. the children in wards.. recovering children, dying children, children with no hope left, children who cant literally afford to hope for best...
i seek the expression of the elder faculty when a child dies, i see helplessness in their eyes, and i wonder...  will all the knowledge in the world help me return this child to his/her parents intact??

i salute the nurses and the staff of medical college for the critical keralite is too egoistic to acknowledge the praiseworthy job these ppl do... their dedication and sincerity in patient care is indeed a great example to the world...

i am searching for words to express wat i feel inside,.. but i cant... the grief that fills my heart is for the children who died during the past weeks while i was at paeds duty... meena, praseeda, antony, adithyan, mahi, manju... my tears are for you... my heart fills with sorrow for you... what your families have been put thru is unimaginable... i partake in the grief of your familes, and cherish my little memories of you...

i mourn the pain and sorrow... for once in many years, i know not how to feel angry.. i am not able to point and blame... i see no point in rage... all i feel is numb and shrivelled... all i can share is grief..

adios