you fear it before hand, you puke afterwards.. ya the same old phenomenon. but meanwhile, might as well enjoy the ride eh.. :)
house surgeoncy full swing on , ladies and gentlemen.. and the first week u should have seen me raving mad and restless, running abt in the acute care room in casualty@med col.. gosh! it was awesome thinking i was saving the lives of all those poor ppl coming in with RTA,heart attack, vomiting blood or whatever.. the bubble burst soon enough and 1 week into it, i was beginning to get the whiff of my ignorance and helplessness that loyally follows it..if i ever wondered why ACR postings were only 1 week, that one week taught me quite a lot.. but mostly, as i said, abt my ignorance and the coexistant helplessness.
well, moving on to IDU was a pleasant change of atmosphere, and back to square one i was.. running the ward 24 single handedly ( happily ignoring the other 2 HS colleagues and the sisters,attenders and of course the unit chief and associates ) felt like bliss, until.. well in an unexpected twist of events, a hepatitis patient went in for liver failure and a varicella encephalitis patient with kidney failure and uncontrolled BP was brought in with his life hanging on peritoneal dialysis... yup, my dear fellas, i did it... i saved them both.. dont worry, soon enough the bubble here burst too and i am not quite sure if it happened out of the resurfacing of my Ignorance and Helplessness syndrome, or just the stress and pressure of sleepless nights and days of titrating antihypertensives and watching over the 40 cycles of dialysis, end on.. again, it cost quite a bubble bursting for me to have realised that Infectious disease unit had in stock for me not only a 1 week posting ( that felt like a life time in that isolation ward for varicella) but also xmas new year surprise gift... yup! all wrapped in shiny little dew drops, i am sitting out the first week of a brilliant career-deciding year 2012, at my home, with chicken pox... and , mind you, it was just BBQ alright :)
while the BBQ was still on the grill, i had an interesting week at the pulmonary medicine dept... believe it or not, my first heads-on with these guys were back in 2nd yr, and i was absolutely awestruck.. when i learned i was gonna be in this dept for my sole specialty posting, it wasnt much of a disappointment for me to know i missed out on radiodiagnosis, forensics, dermatology, and some other depts.. but , as the narrative is going downhill, gathering all its sarcasm to the fullest, you might have guessed already that here, no bubble is gonna even appear for me... of course some vesicles appeared towards the end, and i should admit i
was overjoyed to get the fever -( which was lost when i learned it was my 2nd chicken pox in less than 4 yrs!) - bcoz if there is anything i wasnt expecting there , it was "chill"..
ya, there was the December chills, and plenty of exacerbations of asthma and COPD was occurring statewide, but surely, it wasnt my fault .. anyway, i continued to feel so and i wondered why.. sure it was a guy place, and i was the sole female in that dept, but i still couldnt make out if the Chills had something to do with my gender. 3 days into the new place, i just lost all my xmas spirit.. at xmas my family received my ghost at home.. :) back to wrk from the break, i felt i was back in Azkaban.. and Dementors were so sweet.. it was just my luck, and the prejudices were deep rooted and quite mutual by then... the "lone wolf" thing was pretty much in fashion for me some time ago, but this time , it was killing the mood of the year.. the road from xmas to new year was just so rough, i was snapping at everyone.. patients, bystanders, family, loved ones... and 31st i just lost it, i broke away... if i could grab a drink or something on new year eve, i would have done it this time ...
house surgeoncy full swing on , ladies and gentlemen.. and the first week u should have seen me raving mad and restless, running abt in the acute care room in casualty@med col.. gosh! it was awesome thinking i was saving the lives of all those poor ppl coming in with RTA,heart attack, vomiting blood or whatever.. the bubble burst soon enough and 1 week into it, i was beginning to get the whiff of my ignorance and helplessness that loyally follows it..if i ever wondered why ACR postings were only 1 week, that one week taught me quite a lot.. but mostly, as i said, abt my ignorance and the coexistant helplessness.
well, moving on to IDU was a pleasant change of atmosphere, and back to square one i was.. running the ward 24 single handedly ( happily ignoring the other 2 HS colleagues and the sisters,attenders and of course the unit chief and associates ) felt like bliss, until.. well in an unexpected twist of events, a hepatitis patient went in for liver failure and a varicella encephalitis patient with kidney failure and uncontrolled BP was brought in with his life hanging on peritoneal dialysis... yup, my dear fellas, i did it... i saved them both.. dont worry, soon enough the bubble here burst too and i am not quite sure if it happened out of the resurfacing of my Ignorance and Helplessness syndrome, or just the stress and pressure of sleepless nights and days of titrating antihypertensives and watching over the 40 cycles of dialysis, end on.. again, it cost quite a bubble bursting for me to have realised that Infectious disease unit had in stock for me not only a 1 week posting ( that felt like a life time in that isolation ward for varicella) but also xmas new year surprise gift... yup! all wrapped in shiny little dew drops, i am sitting out the first week of a brilliant career-deciding year 2012, at my home, with chicken pox... and , mind you, it was just BBQ alright :)
while the BBQ was still on the grill, i had an interesting week at the pulmonary medicine dept... believe it or not, my first heads-on with these guys were back in 2nd yr, and i was absolutely awestruck.. when i learned i was gonna be in this dept for my sole specialty posting, it wasnt much of a disappointment for me to know i missed out on radiodiagnosis, forensics, dermatology, and some other depts.. but , as the narrative is going downhill, gathering all its sarcasm to the fullest, you might have guessed already that here, no bubble is gonna even appear for me... of course some vesicles appeared towards the end, and i should admit i
was overjoyed to get the fever -( which was lost when i learned it was my 2nd chicken pox in less than 4 yrs!) - bcoz if there is anything i wasnt expecting there , it was "chill"..
ya, there was the December chills, and plenty of exacerbations of asthma and COPD was occurring statewide, but surely, it wasnt my fault .. anyway, i continued to feel so and i wondered why.. sure it was a guy place, and i was the sole female in that dept, but i still couldnt make out if the Chills had something to do with my gender. 3 days into the new place, i just lost all my xmas spirit.. at xmas my family received my ghost at home.. :) back to wrk from the break, i felt i was back in Azkaban.. and Dementors were so sweet.. it was just my luck, and the prejudices were deep rooted and quite mutual by then... the "lone wolf" thing was pretty much in fashion for me some time ago, but this time , it was killing the mood of the year.. the road from xmas to new year was just so rough, i was snapping at everyone.. patients, bystanders, family, loved ones... and 31st i just lost it, i broke away... if i could grab a drink or something on new year eve, i would have done it this time ...
and come New Year 2012... there i was ,down with 102c fever and a couple of shiny dew drops on my back.. :) what a bang! but in a sense, i was happy to have that excuse ..i grabbed it and was back home, to mother's love and a ton of chicken pox medicines ( believe me, you dont wanna have chicken pox 2nd time for all the world, once it starts) ... sure enough i hated Acivir tabs like i was eating lead bullets.. but it was sanity and homeliness.. and my hopes for the year to come is fully reloaded...
hear me, all the mad music loving maniacal young doctors out there, i am so out of the nut house and back with a bang... ( while it lasts.. he he)
signing off..
Hi.. Meenu, now only I am reading this particular one.You have given a very good narration of your first professional experience!!! Professional Life is just like this. Sometimes, we wish we have 10 hands and 100 brains. But one thing I can tell; if you have tough experiences in the beginning of the career itself, you will get its benefits later!!!
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